Introducing.......... 'the Achiever'
Sub Personality
by Rachel Boon
Hi, I'm called the Achiever - sometimes the 'purposeful one'. That's my job really - to keep things moving along, to have a purpose.
I've been around for a while really - probably since my host [she's the one I do all this for] went to High School. I've just remembered, that's also about the time her Father left home and her Mum was pretty stressed out. But I figure I was pretty settled in before then.
Work is real cool - like she was working over the road at the Old Folks Home even at twelve - getting good work habits and of course some money. Her folks needed her to earn her own pocket money - she was one of the older ones. Second eldest in fact but more reliable than her elder sister.
Oh yes. I had a pretty important role. She has a lot to thank me for. It was me that drove her along, kept the pressure on really. Otherwise there was a real risk of her being lazy - a trap to fall into. Couldn't cope with that when her Mum was working so hard - like she had a full time job as well as raising five kids and keeping the house clean and not falling to bits. She worried about keeping it all together really so expected a lot from the kids to help her feel she was doing ok.
When my host left home and started her Nursing Training at the hospital, I was the one that kept her going - well maybe with just a little help from the other subs as well. I did pretty well really cause it was important for her to cope well. It was tough in those days - like you pretty much got thrown in at the deep end and sank or swum. She learnt to swim with my help - by putting her head down and getting on with it. Not much room for wondering about how it all felt but then I don't have much time for that myself - I'm a head man personally. Keep things rational. It can all get a bit messy if you let the emotions get an upper.
Like even when she hooked up with that guy she ended up marrying and did exhausting things like carting trailer loads of bricks at midnight out to the building site after an afternoon shift. I kept her cool. Reminded her that she wasn't the first woman to work hard. Think of what it was like for her ancestors. She was lucky she had a strong body.
Mind you, I've always had pretty good support. In her family, work was akin to godliness. Always given the utmost of respect and status. And respect from the community tended to come from old fashioned hard work as well as some status from having a respectable occupation like Nursing. I guess that kind of made up a bit for her hubby's lack of ability to 'stick it' in the work force.
When she started working in community health this was a real good opportunity for her and me to let ourselves go. Like she put in long days with all the travelling as well. But I just said to her - you're only working three days so if you just work real hard it will be ok. The work will get done. Others will think you're doing ok and you will have the satisfaction of knowing you have given it your all. Actually I think that dammed 'martyr/victim' sub crept in there a bit - encroaching on my patch.
But we were so good as a team. We kept up the same approach when she was working full time and then when she had the Area Manager's job. Even though it kept growing bigger and bigger, I kept her on track with the same messages like before so she didn't ever stand up and say 'hey, this is too much'.
I must say I was pretty miffed when it all stopped. I thought I was keeping the lid on things pretty well, then it all blew to bits. Said she was exhausted. Started pushing me out of the way and listening to some of those waste of space ' feely' subs. I don't feel really threatened though. I will just bide my time for a bit and I'm sure bit by bit I'll get more space again. I mean look what I've done for her - a good work reputation, some financial stability as well as sound work habits. Can't all be for nothing……… can it?
No. I am important here!!!
Rachel Boon
August 2000
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